You never know where life will take you. As much as you plan and dream for your future, God has His own plans.
With the start of a new year, 2015 promised to be an exciting one. My oldest son, Nick would be graduating from high school in the spring and starting college in the fall. My second son, Zach was playing high school golf, finishing up his junior year, and getting ready to be a senior in the fall. So much to look forward to, so many changes, so many hopes and dreams to envision for the future.
Little did I know what this year would hold for my family. On February 1st, Super Bowl Sunday, we were relaxing at home and watching the Big Game. We had just had a family birthday party the night before to celebrate Zach’s 17th birthday, so it was nice to have a relaxing evening at home. As we were sitting on the couch watching the game, I looked over at Nick and said, “What’s up Nick, you look like you have something on your mind?” Maybe it was mother’s intuition, but the answer I got was not what I expected…
“Kenzie’s pregnant”, he replied.
I couldn’t believe what I just heard. “You’re kidding, right?” was my response. I looked at my husband and then back at Nick again. He shook his head, he was not kidding. I was hit with a flood of emotions. So many thoughts and questions ran through my head. How could this happen? They are so young. What will people think? Why is this happening now? What did I do wrong as a mother? How will I tell my parents? How can I be a grandma? I couldn’t think straight and the tears started to flow. I was heartbroken. After the news had set in and I had a good cry, my first priority was to tell Nick how much I loved him and that we would be there for him and support him. It wasn’t going to be easy, but we would do everything we could to help. As hard as this news was to hear, I knew that I just had to trust in God and this baby was truly a gift from Him.
It wasn’t easy. The first few weeks I would be overcome with panic attacks or just break down in tears. There was a lot to think about and a lot of plans to make. We decided to get through graduation before we shared the news with family. Graduation was a bittersweet moment. The pride I felt was overwhelming as my first born crossed the stage and received his diploma. He would be taking a much different path than most of the young graduates, but I was so proud of the man he was becoming.
As summer came, one challenge after another seemed to take over our lives. In June, Nick was diagnosed with pancreatitis and was in the hospital for four days. At the beginning of July, I cut the tip of my finger off and had to have plastic surgery. My mom had a heart scare in mid-July and had to have a stint put in due to blockage in the artery. Prayer was my comfort, and I kept reminding myself that God doesn’t give us more than we can handle. It was a whirlwind, but all the while this precious miracle of my granddaughter continued to grow in her mommy.
My biggest stress of the summer was how to tell my mom and dad that they were going to be great grandparents. I worried and prayed and wondered what their reaction would be. I could only imagine the worst, but should have known that their love and acceptance was always there. When l finally got around to sharing the news, it was such a huge relief! Of course, they were surprised but loving and supportive as I knew in my heart they would be.
As August came, Nick started school at Meramec Community College and continued to work as many hours as he could. We began to count down the days until the baby would arrive. There was a bit of concern as the amniotic fluid levels dropped and remained unsteady throughout the rest of the pregnancy. My prayers remained the same – Please God let this baby be healthy.
On September 29 at 5:13am, beautiful Sophia Grace arrived! She arrived on the feast of the Archangels: St. Michael, Gabriel, and Raphael. She is healthy and perfect. Her mom and dad are doing an amazing job and are wonderful parents.
It is so hard to believe that my baby is now a Daddy. I am so blessed and proud to be a grandmother to this precious baby girl. She is the light of our lives. The road ahead will not always be easy, but this little miracle is definitely a gift from God and with God, all things are possible.
“With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26
With a full heart,
I have been married to my husband, Kurt, for 20 years and I am the mom to two wonderful sons, Nick and Zach. I am also the proud grandmother to beautiful Sophia Grace.
I work as a caregiver to the elderly and I love to volunteer. I have been the auction chair at St. John Vianney high school for the past 2 years. I love to read and travel, but I am happiest when I am spending time with my family.
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